Only 2 weeks until surgery!

I have a little less than two weeks until I have my surgery. My bariatric program requires me to do a two week all liquid (protein) diet prior to surgery. I started it on Friday (8/27)...so now on day five.

It's been kind of rough.

The protein drinks (while not the most delightful) are somewhat filling, so I don't feel like I'm starving. But, I do feel like I want something more substantial than liquid. I miss chewing and tasting and texture and enjoyment. I think I'm mourning my food a little. Evening (after dinner) is the hardest for me, probably because that used to be my prime snack time. It's my unwind time in front of the TV and food has always been there with me. So, during that time of the day I eat popscicles (I'm allowed sugar free popsicles and jello).

I found these great Crystal Light popsicles...it's just like eating frozen Crystal Light...so you can pretty much eat as many as you want (within reason...they do have 15calories, but no sodium, carbs, sugars or anything else). That helps me a little with craving chewing and texture...and they taste pretty good.

I've also been exercising more. I have this DVD: Walk Away the Pounds (by Leslie Sansone). I really like it because it's low impact and there are different levels on the DVD so I can handle their beginner level and not get discouraged with exercise.

Overall, I am REALLY looking forward to having this surgery, because I'm looking forward to be healthy and getting my life back. But, surgery is surgery, and I'm nervous about the procedure itself. I'm sure I will be really nervous come next Friday, but I can't "weight" to start my new life!

Goal #1: DONE!

Last week I met with Dr Cetin...he is the Cleveland Clinic Bariatric Program Doctor. Of course my visit started with a weigh-in. I was nervous. I wasn't sure if I would have a loss because of my horrible eating the 2 weeks prior. But I managed to lose two pounds! Yea for me! I was glad it wasn't a gain, however I thought about how much more weight I could have lost if I would have tried even harder. I won't beat myself up over it, but it was a good reminder.

So, with this two pound loss I met my first goal...breaking the 300 pound barrier that I've battled with for many months now. It's not by much (My weight was measured as 299lbs), but it doesn't matter, because I've done it and I'm going to continue to lose.

I will NEVER be 300 lbs again.